或许

或许，我就是那么命苦。

或许，现在还不是时候。

或许， 是我的错。

或许，根本就不是我想的那样。

我想了很久，思考了很多遍。






我没事了，我可以很大声地告诉任何人。

真的。




最近，我的思绪很不稳定。

因为？呵呵，冷笑。


我不知道我自己站在什么位置。
我，没有了方向。


总相信会有一阵风，吹走我所有的烦恼。

crazy !?!

hmmm~ someone told me that

Are you crazy huh?? don't you think its worth when you wasting time and doing this??

and what my respond was only a smile and nothing to say.

YES, i am. :)

i'm a crazy girl when joining drama,

the feeling is ineffable.

i don't know whether how long i still can joining this,

but its been a long relationship between me and drama life.

Drama is no longer a performance chance for me,

its a warm,sweet,encourage,and a feeling on it.

this few years, I've been trying so hard on it.

cuz I'm not a professional stage crew and performer,

so, what i need to do is, what also have to do!!

cuz what i want is i have to learn whatever i want in drama.

well,

but i only did few, only few.

its not a easy job,

so don't think its easy to make it to a very nice performance on stage.

doing drama work is like a swot!!!!

you can just because of the little things and did don't know how many times!!!

haha~

but i enjoy~ :)

that's why... somebody will ask..

why still joining but you make yourself work like a zombie??

what? zombie?

oh ya~hehe, we like it, that's it. :)

maybe ,this is so-call PASSION ?

well,

i hope i got this kind of PASSION on my future work ^^

Choices & Consequences

Well, today is a very nice day.
and this is the first time i post my blog with english.
what a day~ phew~


The time is went quickly,
I am getting an uneasy feeling whenever i think about the fact
that i'm about to graduate.

Taking all factors that is in consideration.
find a simple work after graduate
or
furthur going to my advanced diploma and degree.

The two decisions, will bring two differents consequence.
i have got lost , and i dont know where i'm going.
be a loss.


hmmm....there's nothing of demand.
there's nothing much of wishes.

I just wish to work and travel around at the same time.
and somemore i wanted to earn my own living cost.
doesn't want to live in dependence on my parents any longer.
let them got a secure old age.
that's it. :)

太在乎

有时候， .

被人误解. . . .

因为不想争辩， . . .

所以选择沉默. . .

 . . . . .

本来就不是所有的人都得了解我 .

因此认为不必对全世界喊话. . . . . .

却也有时候 . 被最身边最亲的人误解， .

难过到不想争辩，

. .

还有什么话可说? . .

也只有选择沉默. . .

.

. . . . . . . . .

总以为自己是很坚强 . .

什么事都能挺过去. . . .

当一股热流滑过脸颊，

我发现自己错了, 

原来自己是那么的脆弱. . . . . . . . . . .

直到现在， . .

才渐渐明白. . .

 . . .

原来所有我认为好的不好的人， . .

在我短暂而又漫长的人生里， . .

他们不过是匆匆过客而已. . . . . . . .

就算当时印象多深 .

交情多铁. . . . . . .

到最后， .

或许只是匆匆一瞥， . .

分开了就不会再有任何交集. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

仅此而已。 .

太在乎会伤了自己。 .

WHATEVER

有时候我会想……

为什么我们会变成这样……

这样会比较开心吗？
如果是，

你可以继续……
我也不会打扰你。
但请你走开！谢谢
你在干扰着我的情绪。

河水不犯井水。





有时候我会想……

世界末日到底会在几时？
要到了吗？
但我好像还没完成我要做的事情=(

不希望来的太突然……




有时候我会想……

到了这个时候……为什么还不能成熟一些……
很幼稚……
到头来你什么都没有……

值得吗……





说真的

还蛮想念
当初的单纯……

厌恶
现在的现实……

我宁可活在这单纯的世界
都不愿踏出面对现实社会


这一年
变得很快…很快…

我想离开。